Where is God When Your Miracle Doesn’t Happen?

Some lean over gravestones and say:  The miracle didn’t happen.And others lean over gravestones and say they got their miracle because she was a miracle, and getting to love her was a wonder, and every moment together was a miracle of grace and there is no other was to explain the extraordinary that she was.What if I don’t have to understand, as long as I know God stands close?My sister was killed, run over, in front of my mama and I, and I watched my wild Mama sob-rock her b